It started when…….
It had been a year since everything shut down, and somehow, I had already graduated a year earlier than I was supposed to. I was on such a high, something I had never experienced before. Especially being in the Top 10 in a class I wasn’t even meant to finish. An acceptance from a college…
Burned out…..
My first semester, I started half online and half in person due to the shutdown. It is awkward and not just for me but for everyone. No one really talked, and I’ve always been naturally shy, so it definitely DID NOT help the situation. I recall there was this one girl in my class, and…
A step away
The fall semester came around, and I was so nervous. I was one retake class away from being able to take the nursing exam. One retake exam to fix my error. That was a lot of pressure I was putting on myself. My schedule that semester was a lot. I had an 8 AM lab,…
Taking my Nursing Entrance Exam
While I was finishing up my fall semester, I was also studying for my nursing entrance exam. Everything to this point was leading up to this. I was given this huge book that had different sections. Math, English, comprehension, and science. All of it. I was given this book by one of the TAs from…
The Counselor
I didn’t get in. That was it. My life is over. All for what? Nothing. I just lay in bed thinking, what the hell. I couldn’t breathe; I just felt heaviness in my chest. So heavy, my throat got tighter. Crap. How could I do this? Next thing I know, I hear the door unlocking.…
A fresh start that didn’t feel fresh
That summer, I spent my time submitting applications and eventually got accepted into my new college. Everyone was excited, more excited than they were for my first college. That’s the one thing my family will never let me forget: how much better this college supposedly was. How better than my old school? Better for me.…
Retaking my Nursing Exam
How do I even begin to tell this story? How much I regret this to this day. At this point in my life, I had moved colleges; I was a third-year, and my GPA was a 2.3. Hi, hello, I’m Caitlin, and I’m panicking. I had one more class left before I could fully apply…
Emotionally burned out
I failed. I failed again, and honestly, my life, my whole life, just ended in that moment. I then heard the front door. Just like last year. It was like deja vu. My mom came in and started preparing to make food. I panicked. How do I even tell her? Do I lie, what can…
Interning Part One:
I am no longer following the nursing track. I have now shifted towards finishing my actual major. Now, to graduate, I need an internship. Funny enough, I found out this information 2 weeks before I started a new semester. So, as true style, I panicked. I applied everywhere. Mostly places involving kids, like painting, hospitals,…
Notes From My Twenties 